Humbug

Lately life just isn't going my way at all. Almost every time I really want get together with a good friend something happens literally 5 minutes before I leave the house where they cancel. Even today I was looking forward to going sledding with a couple good friends and I get a text saying something came up and like that the hopefulness I had stored up all day just got crushed. The only good thing that has come out of the last like week is that I got 3 sweet tee's from Threadless today.

I'm not saying I'm mad that even when I see friends all I hear is how life is sucking for them as well, because I am all for listening. It just makes me sad that in this cheerful season that many are sad, including me. I even had to turn off the Christmas music I have been listening to because it wasn't making me cheerful at all. Had to make the switch to Sigur Rós.

So much just isn't wanting to go with me right now and hopefully it starts soon, because Christmas is going to suck if it doesn't.

Dang mate

Too Fake

Organization

So was cleaning up the room I work and game in and found some old things. Can't decide to throw some certain things out, they make me smile but also reminisce on the past which isn't always a good thing. I'm stuck at a cross roads.

Yet

I'm so grateful to have such good friends, thanks alot.
Love you guys lots

Sorry but your wrong.

You think I stopped thinking about you along time ago, I might of told myself that and believed it for a day, but lately I can't stop thinking about you. I try so hard to stop thinking about you but it is beyond me and beyond distraction. I tried doing a portrait of myself crying and I found that I've basically dried all my tears up from this, I even listened to our old song but even that didn't get me going. Even so I can stop thinking about you.

I don't know what to do, I just can't seem to stop it.

I can't get you out of my head.

I would wish to make more memories with you, just not memories of a being in a relationship, but friends. But that won't be for a long time, f I'm inpatient sometimes.

Funny how it happens

Well to me it is, how we meet new good friends out of broken relationships. How we are both good friends with the other's best friend. Well it makes me giggle (a soft giggle).

Was it worth it? Not at all, and neither were you.

Sleepless Sundays

Well since the semester has started I think I've only had 3 sunday nights where I've got more than 2 hours of sleep. Man I need to work out this habit and be more productive during the day.

Creative Time

Just happens to be between 2-4am, DEATH

0 to Mangina in 3 seconds.

I almost pee'd myself laughing when a girl in my class stated that line.

Why I hate clubbing (when you go for someone else that is)

Well went to my friends 18th last night and man I did not enjoy it for the first 4 hours until we left the club. It just made me feel so lonely and I just felt like leaving but would of felt bad if I did leave.
So until I plan not to go to another club until I'm in another relationship so that won't be for a while.

well the shit's hit the fan, i'm fucked

i feel like total shit and i don't know why
today was fun, hung out with some good friends but i just feel sick to my stomach about something that i just can't put my finger on