listening to: Boxer - The White Feathers
feeling: an ocean of emotion

I lay awake, my mind racing.
I can't fall asleep, for I can't get you out of my head.

I can't get many thing out of my head.
I am being overflown with thoughts,
Of the past, the present, and the future.
The doors have opened and the water is rushing in.


I am scared, unsure.
Maybe I'm not good enough,
That I can't bear your burden with you.
If I'm can't, I will hurt you, as I have hurt others,
I don't know if I can handle that again.

I look all around me, my walls are covered with pain.
As I look through my past, I see all the brokenness.
It's all coming back, my greatest fear turns out to be what I'm best at.