20100209

I'm alive because you allow God to use you

http://support.flannel.org/category/noomastories/
If you watch only 1 of these videos, make sure you watch the first one.

The title was a quote from the film at 3:43, and it's one of my favorites. Not that I can relate entirely to all the text before it, but I can relate to this line. There are only a handful of people in my life as of recently, who I can say this to and if I sent you here then give yourself a pat on the back, your one of them, because of you, I can truly say I am alive. You have done either something small or big that made me change the way I am living, from my life that I thought was spiritually fulfilling, but was more dead than alive, into a torrent of grace that has been let upon me. Thanks so much, you are such a blessing and I wouldn't trade any of you for the world.

20100208

untitle until i can describe my view on my life

http://hutzon.tumblr.com/
check it, wreck it

my new tumblr (well i've had it for a long time but never posted anything)
I love this jazz, I feel like I can say stuff there were i can't anywhere else

Ok this made me laugh

i hope it did for you hp lovers as well

20100207

I'm glad I can now say "You really have"

I just was questioning a friend who I had cut out of my life for the last 3 months, if she had friends who held her accountable, who challenged her in ways she needed to be challenged in because she had totally lost hope.

I just remembered a conversation I had last year with one of my closest friends, well actually it was more a text fight (didn't live in the same city at the time). My friend raised the question during the fight, "How have I affected your life, you have never listened to any advice I have given you". It was true, and the fight ended with that comment.  It didn't really hit home with me back then because all the advice she had given was through text messages over miss-communications (which is the only reason why those fights started and I'm really glad we don't fight anymore). I'm glad that if she ever asked me that same question I would be easily able to respond "You sure have, and your advice has hit home with me more then any other person in my life".

With that said, if you need to give advice to a friend, try your best to take your friend out for coffee or something that makes it face to face (I know you can't always sometimes you can't because of distance, but for every other time). Make the advice personal, and not from some cellphone LCD screen.

20100204

The Little Things


We need to slow down, to embrace the little things. Blur your vision while you enjoy the small things, the fine details. I been slowing down lately, after having experienced the 4x5 camera, I've been taking my time on everything now, even my eating! The digital age has made us selfish to get results of everything, faster and better. It is slowly killing us faster than we normally kill ourselves. We think we can survive on less sleep so we can work for longer hours. I've been trying my best to go to bed at an actual reasonable hour lately, midnight is reasonable for me. It might not be for you, but I'm used to 4-5 hours of sleep a night, so 7 hours is a good start to a better life.

I challenge you all to take your time with everything. To just slow down, it was hard to do it originally but now my body's gotten much more used to it. This does not mean to be lazy, but to recognize god's beauty all around. Me and my friend celine took a few pictures of a bush yesterday for over 15 minutes. It was a bush like any other bush around there, but we just slowed ourselves down (I slowed her down without telling her, complete success, she didn't have a clue, although she probably just thought I do this all the time although I don't) and saw things we would of never noticed otherwise. Like a single strand of some stranger's hair which was intertwined in the bush and covered with frost, it camouflaged almost perfectly within the branches although it blew in the small breezes.

(This next part does apply mostly to myself and the lesson's i've learned but it's good to just try these things out)

So slow down, embrace time, the little things. Really taste food that than gobble it down, if that means you can't talk with the person your eating with than so be it. Silence is golden, take it when you can because we don't get nearly enough in our lives. Enjoy music for the suttleness of the lyrics and sounds rather than just having it on in the background. Pray more, but also listen more, to God and your friends, because it's not always about you. Explore new places and stumble upon little city getaway's, but never run away from reality. Never hide (unless your playing hide and seek) who you are, but believe in yourself and who you are. Don't let the worry of people judging you determine who you are because it will control who you will be, your real friends will and always will love and accept you for who you are, not someone your not. Don't live your life in a lie, you are only lying to yourself. Learn how to say no and if friends offer to go out of the way for you to learn to accept their gratitude. Never make assumptions about friends if the info isn't from the source. Always be open to new ideas, change happens and you can do nothing to stop it, accept it. Never play with another person's heart, but also don't let someone play with your heart, if you are having that happen to you, get out now. If it's not going to work now don't let it go on for any longer, you'll only get hurt more. Don't be afraid to try new things, you may find a new love. Love the unloved and love unconditionally. Remember that God and your parents will (or at least should) love you no matter what and most importantly that agape needs no reason. No matter what you do you can be forgiven and be cleansed of all your shame.

20100202

The Further I am, the closer I get

As of lately I have been more in touch with god I have found. I have never prayed so often in my entire life, and not just the lame meal pray, but about my friends and things I can't do on my own. I find it ironic that when I'm not involved in anything at camp or my church that I am actually closer to god (not jumping to any conclusions though).

My mom told me a while ago that one of her friends told her that Satan go for the people that are having the most success with their spirituality.  So the closer you are to god the more vulnerable you really are.
I've been searching for him lately and I think I've found him, in my friends. I've still got much to learn and my friends are teaching me (if they know it or not).

Love you guys lots.

20100201

No When, No Wants, No Worries

Stumbled across this while being bored in my photoshop class, I found this really cool.
"Q. What is the meaning of "no when, no want , no worry"?
A. I was watching 60 Minutes
and they were visiting
a tribe of gypsies
who live in the
Andaman Sea in
Southeast Asia.

They are called
The Moken
and they spend 70% of their time
on the ocean.

They all survived the tsunami.

They saw it coming cuz
they are super in touch
with the ocean.

The interviewer asked
one of them how old he was.
He didn't know.

He asked why none of the gypsies
knew their ages.
The interpreter said it's cuz
when you live on the water
all day
everyday
fishing,
eating,
swimming
time does not exist.
There is only now.
The moken don't have
a word for "when".

They also don't have
a word for "want".

They either *have* or *need*.
but they don't know what it is to 'want'.

No when. No want.... No.... ?

That's right.
No word for "worry".

No when.
No want.
No worry. "

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